Letting you go
still thinking about this thing a lot
you got me shaken up
Please tell me there’s a way
And it got my head just spinnin’ round round round round
Don’t wanna take a fall
It’s best to break it up
It’s gonna be better for you to move on
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

I swear I won’t even for a second
cause you any pain
in order to protect you
there’s already no other way
Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say

You know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
Those words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else

Sad it just ain’t happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can’t let ya
Shouldn’t be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn’t live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Must believe that it hurts
that lead this world
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
to be let you go
I wish that one soul

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness
Tell me goodbye

cr : BB

WARNING : EMO POST

saya takut saya phobia saya gerun saya tak mahu lagi rapat dengan seseorang. sebab setiap kali saya cuba rapat, saya akan sakit kan dia tanpa saya sedari dan kami akan jadi jauh gila.

saya benci saya

BYE

as it stated, I'm saying goodbye.

to who ?

this blog lah ! ;P

oh and I'm sorry for every mistakes I've done and I won't blame you if you don't want me. just tell me goodbye, I'll try to understand even though it will make a big hole in heart. I'll be bella, a good one I promise :)

study study study !

GO !

hellO

yes hello to you and salam to you. to whom ever really did read this poor lacking of everything blog ;P I just want to stated few things about me. random yet useful if you want to use it against me *xtau la mana tau ada orang nak berperang dgn saya ;P*

1- I have a low confidence level which I know for long time ago. I did want to change this attitude but no thanks, I'm happy with the way I am. I know I always 'look' confidence if I gave a presentation or something because I was bajet to look cool. it's all in the face and you can tell that I am not confidence at all. and even if I speak to anybody, it's just hard to see then in the eyes and just talk. I prefer looking at my feet than their face. it sort of scared me ? and it is really truly hard to talk to male except for my father. plus the fact that I hate 'em. okay enough.

2- I know many people said that 'you are the greatest friend I ever had' to their friends. I've got couple of that and that word made me think and the conclusion I've made, no I am not. it's just when I am down, my friend support me and sooth me in a very comfortable way. but when the other way around, I just don't know what to do and say. I could only just hug them and let go. I'm not a adviser person and that fact made me feel sick. huh

3- OKAY now we go to the bright side i guess ;P I LOVE DEBUSSY ! I know classic right ? HAHA. not only debussy, but the sound of piano (?) instrumental kot dorang panggil. entah. I also adore carter burwell. genius with the piano ;) terasa sebak je dengar bunyi ting ting ting tu berlagu. awwww ;) and tanam semangat baru nak ada keyboard bila ada rumah nanti. maybe I'm not playing it. HE HE HE ;P really love my new interest ! I call it piano listening. biar salah ;P

hah felt nice just to let it go for a while don't you think ?
I don't even know why you're reading my blog, anybody. macam lah ada apa dalam ni? puff~ okay perasan ada orang baca belah lah.
buhbye

and so ?

I have to repeat to myself so many time....

I DON'T CARE

I DON'T CARE

I DON'T CARE

some how, it release my tension ;)

salam ;)

okay today's post gonna sound like I'm a bad girl or something. HAHA putus fius gila minah ni ;P
*n my bahasa today gonna be like tak berapa betul sebab baru habis baca novel hlovate ;)*

malam semalam pergi rumah dinner kat rumah wak yah. sajasaja sebab nenek pun ada kat situ. then family uncle atan pun ada juga. and so does his son fazlan shah or simply alan ;)

Dalam family, belah mak la, orang boleh dikatakan memang lepak dengan budak laki. faham tak? HAHA biaaarrr. entah since kecik pun, kalau nak main-main lepas kutip duit raya pun, antara boys and girls mesti la buat aktiviti lain kan? so saya lebih tergerak mengikut aktiviti lelaki ;P and yg kurang dua tiga tahun dengan saya pun lelaki. takkan la nak main barbie doll dengan girls yg bawah umur tu? alamat menempah maut tak tidur malam ;P so saudara yg saya kamceng n satu kepala otak tak berapa nak betul is farid and alan. ingat lagi dulu waktu saya darjah 6 kot. parents farid which is my uncle and auntie ajak me and alan with farid ofcourse to awana genting. ya Allah memang biol kitorang waktu tu. habis semua lawak antara tanah tinggi keluar ! HAHAA ;) rinduuu. walaupun sekarang dah tak boleh nak ikut beronggeng sesuka hati w/o parents saya, kami still 3 kepala yg memang sewel tahap tak boleh belah ;P and when kitorang bergabung tenaga, memang riuh satu kampung. and n benda yg paling best be friend dengan dorg kan, boleh BELASAH dorg puas2 ! HAHA ye la mana boleh tetiba pukul laki stranger kan. kang tak pasal dia bawak geng dia mau tak hidup lagi insan bernama zulaikha ni ;P so kalau geram tahap giga pun, laki dua orang tu jadi magsa dera~ HAHA kesian tapi lantak. saudara ;P

the one with specs, is alan. and he is so much skinner than this ;) good job lah! the simply botak tu farid. paling best cubit dia sampai lebam ;P yg pegang tangan jebat tu azib. takdekena mengena dengan entry ni sorry ;P

okay benda kat atas ni saja tulis sebab lama tak bergelak sakan ngan dorg ;P rinduuu konon. HAHA nak muntah aku~

kembali ke alam yg betul sikit.

a slogan on a T-shirt by florida clothing company David and Goliath.

HAHA saya tahu gambar ni tak sama dengan post saya kat atas tu. tapi gambar ni macam membahagiakan saya. well atleast not all, I repeat, NOT ALL boys are stupid. only the one that melepak takde kerja lain nak melainkan dok phewit2 anak dara orang. n boys yg player tahap tak ingat dunia. n boys yg smoking. OMG I HATE YOU WITH ALL MY INTERNAL ORGAN ! wahai lelaki, tolong lah berubah mencontohi Rasulullah dan para sahabat. tak rugi. lagi perempuan suka *-_-* tinggalkan rempit lumba motor walaupun tak de niat. teruskan usaha mengenal Allah. n jangan buat orang baling batu kat diri tu. tolong lah jaga diri oi.

dah penat mengarut. sambung baca buku ;P

p/s : JANGAN LUPA TERUS BERDOA UNTUK SAUDARA SEISLAM KITA DI PALESTIN. WAJIB KITA MENDOA KAN MEREKA. SEMOGA ALLAH PERMUDAHKAN URUSAN MEREKA. AMIN.

salam !

some people say

salam.

we're going to play a game today. a game that start with: some people say...

some people say I am not like how I used to be
some people say I have change to more girlish me
some people say I abandon them to be with others
some people say I am smart and I can get high score
some people say I studied the most
some people say I am the most happy person they met
some people say nothing

well

I say I am changing and it is never your problem
I say will you hate me just because I am more girlish
I say I never going to abandon those who doesn't abandon me
I say everybody are equal in their mental state
I say simply no
I say never judge the book by it's cover
I say just get lost

lastly, I DON'T CARE .

mood swing~

salam !

sorry for my mood swing. I know I shouldn't have effect others around me with my emotion. I've been training them. yes, I've been training my emotion. even when I'm crying, at a split second I can laugh for those who made me cry. HEBAT tak hebat anak mak dah pandai berlakon ! HAHAHA ;P but sometimes, rasa penat dan tak larat. so ter-effect orang tu. I am mad at you but usually I padam all those feeling away. but entah la, terasa penat dan tak larat. so saya berdiam diri dan shut my mouth up so I won't shout at you. so now, I am very and trully sorry for the way I behave. may Allah pelihara me from any baaaaad emotion and feeeeeling :)

okay ayat x betul sebab english and bm sudah habis ! ;P padahal spm belum kot !

good luck fellows for the remaining papers. konvoi ramai2 pergi kino hari jumaat before cuti okay !

toodles !
*yup, emosi still tak setabil. kejap biol kejap sengal. biasalah anak gadis -___-

something we can't force? or can we?

salam.
there's nothing much.but yup, I do staring out the windows for couple of minutes and my friend would say, "oi berangan !" and I will be back to normal. the thing is, it, snot me that I'm berangan about. it's me and my surrounding. tak paham abaikan. look, people share things right? and of course they share it with someone they trust. I also did that BUT when I share my thing with the people I trust, I don't tell any body else especially my good friends. why in the world did I do that? what do you think when your good friend share their problem with some other good friend, but you know she has a problem and you also know she tell the others but not you. she never going to tell you what she tell to the other. do you know what this person feel?

stupidly helpless .

okay fine if you don't want me to know your problem, but please, just please don't talk about your prob with the other IN FRONT of me. seriously I'm tired of all this. I know I should stand beside you and help you help you, but what could I do if you don't want this person to be beside you? it is your choice, not mine. and if really are getting tired of me, let me know. I can be away, I promise.

ya Allah, bless us with your nur and sakinah. make the bond between us the strongest of them all, so that we can find Your path, together. Amin

かなしみ

why does this tears won't fall down ?

yes I feel your pain but yet,
it wasn't sure,
and I certainly don't have any idea in the whole wide world to make it right again.

dang it ! urgh now I'm really mad. just get lost ! sometimes I just hate peoples and I hate feelings. and again yes, we are attuned to hate things that we don't like even though that thing was the best for us.
Luckily I do still have Him. only to Him I will seek guidance. please forgive me. for I have done nothing to you. I'm just sorry.

sorry...

4-teen dayS !

salam! :)

Alhamdulillah I've survived 14 days of straight school days! it is a wow thing for me so just accept my hyper thinking (?) HAHA.

# the first week, 7 days, pile up all the ilmu that the teachers had given us!

# that saturday, banat of G4squared have extra chemistry class with cg. Hasnah. from 8 A.M till 7 P.M! but of course there's a break. it's not like they want to torture us -__- and break? LOTS AND LOTS OF FOOD! serius kenyang gila nak pengsan!

# that sunday, eventhough B3K have bowling tournement, which I sincerly really and truly want to go, the KKT5 had something in mind. bengkel BAT. with my plastered (?) heart, I went to the bengel and got the ilmu! :)

# another week of school with all the story in the world and ilmu. and ofcourse, 7 days!

# this saturday, we've got bengkel modern math. and that lovely teacher are so funny and hilarious yet very tipsy! HAHA. cool presenter and nice tips. thank you for the ilmu!
It didn't stop there... next! study group! form 4 physics. in my red bedroom :) me, yami, nome, kinah, tipah are the candidate of otak nak meletup ;P so yeah, three chaps until the evening and chem at night. meracau saya dalam tidur ;D

# this sunday, today. bengkel biology! lots of information and tips we got from the teachers. such a dedicated teachers. thank you. BIOLOGY ITU SENANG!
owh then me, yami and alia went to jusco wangsa maju and of course, sae pun ada. HEHE. we met at MISS T! yes, that PINK shop! XD bla bla bla suddenly sae want to buy me a belated birthday present. *saya ada bagi hint2 ;P* so dapat la. she ask me to name it a bit like hers sooo.....


Mr. E'E !
kalau tak tahu sebut tanya saya ;D thank you so much sae. SUKA SANGAT! he is so helplessly CUTE! ;D tunggu bulan 7 taw! :P

14 days of input the ilmu, sampai kosa kata pun tak betul -__- but alhamdulillah I still survive and happy about it! :P thank you Allah and my family and friends! *macam buat speech ape je*

till then!
saya suka gambar ni ! macam lucu ! ;D

al-kisah

salam! ;) something weird happen today. not weird. shocking. HAHA takde papepun sebenarnya :P

darjah 2 ;
jojo hanya mengenal seorang sahaja rakan yang boleh diajak berbual dan bermain kerana jojo seorang yang teramat pemalu. rakannya pun dua x lima lah. dan pada tahun ini juga lah, jojo buat pertama kalinya terasa hati kepada seseorang yang diberi nama AD. beliau boleh dikatakan terpikat dengan AD tetapi didiamkan sahaja takut rakannya tahu.

darjah 6 ;
kerana ketidaksamaan kelas, jojo berpaling tadah kepada orang lain lalu tidak pandang AD.

tingkatan 2 ;
bertemu semula. dan sama sekolah dan kelas dan bas sama. jojo berasa sungguh ajaib! tiba-tiba beliau minat kepada AD kembali.

tingkatan 3 ;
gerak-geri AD diperhati. sungguh comel. macam perempuan pun ada. jojo suka apabila AD menyandarkan sikunya di kerusi bas. macam kanak-kanak.

tingkatan 4 ;
jojo benci sangat dengan AD. kerana AD telah berubah sikap. daripada innocent kepada poyo lalu kelihatan seperti buaya darat! ini semua gara-gara mengikut perangai rakan sebaya. jojo dalam diam berdoa kepada Allah supaya membawa AD ke jalan yang lurus semula.

so there's the al-kisah. and you are still wondering why did I even write about this story that doesn't connected in any person who are alive. and I'm wondering too! ngeee ;) the moral of the story is, *bapak skema ayat -_-* a person can like love or what ever feeling but NO approach to the zina! *ayat pahape*. I saw this at someone blog,

"Barang siapa jatuh cinta,

kemudian beliau MENAHAN DIRINYA,

tidak MELUAHKAN PERASAANNYA lalu mati,

maka matinya itu ialah SYAHID."

subhanAllah indahnya kalau kita dapat mati syahid! cuma dengan tidak mendekati zina like sms or try to talk to that guy or girl insyaAllah.
tips for get this thing out of our head:
1) always remember Allah and PARENTS!
2) just get rid of all the boys phone number in your cell *yang takde hubungan kerja la*
3) never reply to them.

3 easy step for us to be closer to Allah~ insyaAllah :)

feel strong!

untuk saya, dia, kami, dan kamu!





versi yang tak ada dialog pun ada. mintaklah kalau mahu :P
*bajet ada orang suka gambar ni! -_-

when time...

salam .

aaah so long. go to school seven days a week. rasa nak muntah pun ada but bertahan je lah! here's the story.

there are time, when we fail but said that it's not our fault.

there are time, when we angry and pointed at somebody else to blame.

and there are also time, when we really need help from Allah, but we didn't get the chance to do it. and like so many people we blame Him for not giving us a chance.

brothers and sisters don't you see?! why must we BLAME others for what ever had happen? it doesn't matter whose fault it is but why must we blame them?
why can't we blame OUR SELF instead? have you ever think that what you did is always right or wrong? or when you tawakal towards Allah, have you DONE ENOUGH to get to that point? remember, doa usaha ilham then baru tawakal. the USAHA part is super pernting! and seriously, when we down, get down to Him. insyaAllah everything will be alright ;)

the prawn behind the rock is that *;)*, there's a girl. ada ujian hafazan as-sajadah hari tu. dia yang malam semalamnya dah penat dengan tuisyen tidur awal. lepas tu baru nak hafal m/s 2 dalam kelas. dapat la 4 ayat. punya tawakal besar punya dekat Allah supaya beliau dapat m/s 1. nama kena panggil, dapat ayat yang selepas yang dihafal. yaAllah membuaknya kemarahan si girl ni tadi. dia balik ke tempat duduk lalu berasa bengang. lantas tutup muka je lah. lalu si girl pun berfikir, kenapa Allah tak tolong beliau. TAPI! beliau terus berfikir, dah cukup ke usaha nak dapat pertolongan Allah?! kenapa tak tidur pukul 3 pagi tadi menghafal? girl pun menangis kerana menyesal. menyesal kerana tidak dapat pertolongan Allah kerana usahanya tidak cukup. girl itu pun terus tabah dah bertekad ingin menghafal keseluruhannya dan bertawakal kerana ingin disayangi Allah :)

finish! ;)
till then! wassalam!

jom !

salam !

KAK ZAZA! heheh not a stalker eh? ;) thank you sanggup baca luahan hati remaja ni :P can't wait for you to balik malaysia lah! ;)

last wednesday, our batch, G4squared *banat* held a meeting (?) not quite. just to announce the organization of our batch and talk about the upcoming activities. and about gotong-royong kutip sampah kan, I think that's cool! show some example! :D I'm out of point. what ever lah.

just be more positive. just do your best. just don't lose faith.

just

just

...

sometimes you wonder......

KENAPA ESOK SEKOLAH ?!

confuse .

salam.

have you ever feel confuse? ahaa what a stupid question to ask -_- it's just that have you ever feel, no, confused between good and bad? deeds and sin? love and anger? life and dead...

I don't think there's many people out there thinking about small matter like this. thinking about everything that you've done for the day. even the tiny thing. for me, its my talent (?) you could say. all of the small-not-very-important matter. I will always put those in my head eventhough sometimes I dont really need to. buff up! *tak tahu pun apa maksud dia, macam best :P*

so have I been good? how about my deeds? have I satistfy you enough? how could I make you smile again and again and again?

that's all for now I guess.
~aishiteru kara~

p/s: Micth Albom's novel, <3.>

yeah, it's time~

Alhamdulillah is the only word i can describe. Thank you and Sorry for all of my wrong doing. and some how, telling this things in english made it easier. hahaha improve lah english tu makcik :P
"sono taiyou ga ikimasho~ dakishimete~"
apebenda aku mengarut ni -_-
we will move forward together if we're like this. pray to Allah and He will give it to us.
Thank you :)

okay serious ni :P

salam.
I feel to write in malay since my grammar literally sucks. hahaXD teacher Alia, I will improve on my grammar soon insyaAllah :)

pagi jumaat yang indah. waaaah hebat nya dunia ini. entah kenapa sekarang suka sebut hebat. macam hebat! -__- back to reality. then bahagia juga sebab tidak perlu hadiri program jumaat. hohoho makin tua makin liat, isy isy ;D SEBAB! ada latihan CHORAL SPEAKING! kami dimaklumkan oleh cg rushida rabu tu, cg kata siapa yang masuk CS masba masuk terus competition for CS antara sekolah gombak. wah, bukan main happy lagi lah kan kami form 5 ni. dapat la segulung sijil lagi :P kami sangat happy berlatih rabu and jumaat tu.

jeng jeng jeng.
hari sabtu yang saya hadiri sebab nak tuntut ilmu dan sebab nak semangat2 pasal CS. sebelum zuhur, siti amirah kamarul zaman jumpa saya dengan muka sedihnya tu.

her : nak dengar berita sedih taaaak?
me : alaaa, apaaaaa?
her : tadi cg rushida kata cg sedih sangat sebab hari ni cg dapat surat dari competition tu. kata antara syarat dia pelajar dari form1 hingga form4 JE.
me : NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

serious patah hati gila gila gila gila nak matiiiiiiiiiii! what the heck with the competition? SPM bulan 11 okay! *x sedar diri betul lah budak ni -_-* then pergi jumpa cg shida. cg dgn muka sedih tunjuk, ikOi tengok la ni. tunjuk satu sampul yg berisi kertas yg nak aja aku koyak2kan. grrrr.

konklusi?

semua PATAH HATI !

*ada udang sebalik batu, ada hikmah lah tu Allah buat macam tu. innaAllahama'assobirin~*

sampai lebamlebam mata

salam, lamanya tak mengetaip. pencapaian yang baik? haha.

okay let's start this. *poyo je :P

it's all about trust. that's what I said to myself. it's all about TRUST if you have a REAL friend. and I ALWAYS trust them no matter what. so if you ever doubt me, seriously, get lost! urgh~

done.

okaay siape ada watak sedih kosong? saya hebat bila part2 menangis2 ni :P I just remember things that surely will make me cry. bukan lah saya ni gila menangis tapi rasa dapat melepaskan sesuatu. rasa best. entah naluri perempuan kot ;D
one thing, if I ever imagine, just imagine that my love ones are in pain no matter whose fault it is, I will cry. and when I know that one of my really important person are in pain, she said that she breakdown, i cried for her. akibat? lebam mata -__- I dont know why exactly but it just to happen that I'm also "full" at that time. it's time i guess. look I'm sorry coz it is a bit of my fault. just please stop your pain. like I said, I will always be by your side. and,
"every tears cried, there are SMILE waiting~"
just be with me. coz I realized not long ago. seriously I CAN'T LIVE IN THE WORLD THAT DOESN'T INCLUDE YOU. let us be by each other side okay? dont be my sakura, just be the huggable you and prepare you're shoulder for me okay? and I will be myself and smile with you through my life.
thank you and "<3 u lots" *ur note :P

why did I ever post things like this?



aishiteru kara~

daijoubu datte sa~

"Seasons go round again, a dazzling city
Everyone passes oblivious of you
That's it, you shouldn't care
It's okay as long as you're by my side

There's no meaning in lining only kind words
They're merely for form's sake and have no contents

If you try changing a little the balance you feel
You will see how wonderful the world is

Love Yourself
Come on, don't overdo yourself
As your heart is, as you are
Realize this love that can shine
I love this you that you hate

This clumsy you is alright
As you feel, as the wind
Dance in the sky just like a flower
I'll embrace this you that you hate

It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF
It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF
It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF
It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF

Other people are not worth caring about
What's important it's your “here”
Now you don't need something like a customary “Do your best”
Because that's what hurts you the most

The seventh word is in your color
Because of that, everything will turn into a single dream

Love Yourself
That's right, they'll resound together
The little noises we're playing
Raise this love we can believe in
I love this you that you hate

Both days when you're almost crushing
And nights when you're on the verge of fading
They're crossing the sky, you will hear them
Far far away, listen, in this chest

I'm singing my love to you so that you would tell me
that you wanna be with me and I feel like... Ah ah

My love, your love My life, your life
This is the new, it's a new world...

It's a new world It starts to shine
As your heart it, as you are
Trust your eyes to me, I love this you that you hate

This clumsy you is alright
As you feel, as the wind
Dance in the sky just like a flower
I'll embrace this you that you hate

It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF
It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF
It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF

It's love, your love LOVE YOURSELF"

have to remind my self right? thanks Mr.A for singing this beautiful song ;D

saya je lah

salam.
yes minggu ini memang minggu yang penuh dengan emosi. saya kurang suka emosi tapi Allah dah bagi, terima je lah -_-

let me say this, I have a really,extremely low level of confidence. since when? since I remember when I live myself. and you know what? I've been fighting myself to say that I am worth it, I do have responsible, people will like me. in that way, I survived parts of my high school life in a cool way. thinking I will give my best and people will like it and say good job!and I ALWAYS do my job to appeases and for others sake.

but no, there's ALWAYS the negative aura or what ever you call it. some people will said "owh common, you always done the bad thing". awak lah yang jahat, awak lah yang busuk, awak lah yang tak baik, awak lah yang salah, awak lah yang selalu mengelat.

ya Allah! seriously I'm tired of all this. whenever I wanted to do something good *with or without telling people*, they will say apahal nt buat macam tu!
common! what the heck! urgh~

and really, if you ARE one of my friend, you would TRUST me no matter what the condition is. when there is something, you should think that I'm doing things for other. not that I'm lepak and do nothing.

seriously, I'm tired. please just please ....

many short

salam,
many things did happen in a short time. sometimes we say alhamdulillah, some other time we say bersabar je lah.

now, I live over some new principle :

1- FORGET the bad thing that others bring to us, REMEMBER what they did to us to make us happy. and vice versa, forget our good deed to people and remember the fault we made.

2- LIFE without a bit hardship was never a good life. so take that hardship and grow.

and so, here my life start as a bibik! hahaXD my bibik just ran away last week. in return i'm the new one -_- but it's alright. I always wanted a job and i got one! dslr isn't just a dream, it WILL come true :)

aah one week of school holiday so it say. not much to do I think. beside sapu rumah setiap hari. and do some form 4 note. yosh! let's do it! -__-
going to download things again this few day. haha so addicted to downloading things ;)

till then,
really and truly I love you. yes YOU! ;)

wake up sister !

salam ! :)

alhamdulillah me and my family are safely back in keramat! hehehe ;D even though when we first move in, the day before yesterday, there are still "holes" aka tingkap yang belum siap dipasang :D but now, only the stairs that haven't been done yet. and of course all of our belongings are literally tonggang terbalik but we made a really powerful effort to clean up the mess. Literally! hahaha

and now here I am, in own red bedroom. wuhooo! and again thank you Allah because I can get the feeling to study here. *nak study pun kene feeling2 ke? -__-* but unfortunately not many pages that I flick through this pass days. hmmm why? because nak kemas lagi lah, lollipop lah, sakura girl lah. godaan banyak ajeee. aduhai~ I need to be more stronger! yeah! go go go! urgh~

okay, test next week are piling up. physic, bio, chem in one way. gotta have a head surgery after done with it I guess :P what ever it is, I surely will never give up and nor too my friends, especially those who goes to tamrin. common guys! we can do it! :)
penat lah mengadap benda ni lama2 :P papai!

I am who I am !

look, I'm not the straight forward kind of person. I don't like it if I just blurt out all the words that I suppose to say. It's not like I couldn't do that but I wouldn't. because I prefer to let all my feelings and words in a beautiful and mysterious-not-straight-forward phrase (?) like show the song's lyric because of the DEEP meaning, creating a so call story but actually, it is what I wish for. I am a deep person. and only who knows me the best are going to deeply understand what I meant. and I also going to write in english because me myself like it. please do accept the fact that I am me and I wont be anybody else. I wont say things the way they are, I will bloom the flowers before the speech get to your heart. urgh I start to making no sense here.
farewell :)

I understand

"merasakan diri hebat bukanlah satu keutamaan,sifat budak2 di dalam diri itu perkara biasa.tiada apa yang perlu dimalukan,mungkin ptt lihat diri sndiri sblom berkata pd orang lain.tidak smua orang hebat sprti yg dikehendaki,perkataan menyindir tak payah digunakan walaupun utk kawan sekalipon."


saya suka ayat2 ini. menyedarkan diri saya. terima kasih!

superly tired !

salam!

it's been long since the last post. this was cause by no net surfing which cause by our peak moment to pindah2 rumah, sukan and EMOSI :P

alhamdulillah, our keramat's house were ready to be fill in this friday. eventhough it wasn't hundred percent finish but we can sleep in it :D so wait for me keramat-ians ;D

sports, killing me! ahahha gelabah~ from scratch last year, to ALL the thingS this year. ye la, form 5, tahun akhir XD
badminton double under 18 : alhamdulillah got bronze for it
aerobic : ALHAMDULILLAH silver all the way! we really thought that we will get fourth but because of kiru and dibah step are so COOL *top*, we raise the bar :)
and FATAH! RED ALL THE WAY~ wuhooooooooo

emotion? angry? sad? happy? laughter? weird?
yup, I dont know where we could feel above things but we really feeling it right? but I develop a new prinsip in my life.
"whenever you feel HATE, replace it with LOVE"
for an example ; people always pushing you, ask you thing that you dont want to tell them, forcing you, and also said i hate you to you. we need to replace all their thought into something positive. we could say nah i'll never tell you, I love someone else! just ignore all the stupid thing that have been planted in you. and yeah we couldn't forget things that we attune to but we can ignore them. sure I can~ go me -___-
but this prinsip only for feelings okay? kalau orang kafir buat benda jahat, jangan lah kita endah je. got it?! :P

lastly,
always remember that even thought people forget us, never forget them because remember what those people's deeds~

it's gonna be superb~

salam! ;)

it's been long since I'd laid my finger here~ huh? hahhaa what ever~
I just want to share one of my happy superb extra-ordinary cool DAY ever! it's D-Day~ hahaaXD Last friday, 5 feb 10. yeah it's my birthday. but I don't really expect anything this year, as in the present because common! I'm 17-lah! hahahha;D

it's not about the present that matters, I just need to collect all the smiley face my friends and family smile for me that day. And yeah, I've got many! hehe ^__^ boy did I remember one face, siap matahari pagi terpancar kat muka dia lagi. SubhanAllah, cantiknya ciptaan Allah! and like always, after 3 flight (?) of stairs I will rest for a bit (lepak la jugak ;D) at the corner. YaAllah! the sunrise is so perfect! nothing could be better than that! Allah had given me the ultimate present ever and I wont forget it. Thank You Allah :)

I am happy that day. that's the spirit~ hehehe ;) some bday sms, and SHAFIAH called me from JB, she used her school public phone! so sweet shaf! "zutto ni :)" and wow lot of present! (berbanding sepanjang hidup!XD) The funny thing is, last year, I was known as the food monster? hehehe ye la, ajk makanan, sweet-tooth, not to forgot my eyes will glitter whenever I see foods hahaha:) SO, this year, it's a based on food present! HAHAHAHAHA! CADBURY BOURNVILLE SIMPLY DARK, TWO! hahhaXD I LOVE YOU GUYS!
it is a wonderful day and I love it! just want to say THANK YOU VERY MUCH! really and truly, from my heart. ;) *I like tegan's word 'really and truly' so cute >.<*


cute kan dorg ni? he he he. Alhamdulillah Allah still let me live with His bless. may I always dedicated myself to Him. amin~ Teruskan perjuanganmu~
(actually I want to write 'bout something else but whenever lah yea? ;D)

I promise, I will give my best shot while I'm still in my 17!

my me self? :P

salam! :)
hey who knows that this day I'm gonna write my biodata? hahaha malas sangat.

let me start with my name since I don't think people really know my REAL name. hahaha :D Noor Zulaikha Bt Zulkhifli is what my parent name me and I'm glad because my name is the same name as Nabi Yusuf's wife ;) he he he. insyaAllah I'll be searching my Yusuf soon~ huahuahua XD people call me by all sort of nameS. "ikOi" "ika" "zu" and others. I'll accept all as long it wasn't anything that is soooo weird. *as if ikOi wasn't weird enoughXD* Ok next is my birthday. due, next week! haha fifth of feb 93! the lucky date with christano ronaldo -__- *btw, I hate him, go Lampard! :P* I'm a proud AUSTRALIAN! yeah! and I'm also a lucky person because my parent got us a cozy house in front of a field. yes it is so calm and relaxing and I will never leave that place. well at least not until I'm old! hehe :) keramat au2b/1. jemputlah datang kalau nak main bola :P hmmm what more could I say? owh yes! my personality.

I've got multi-personality? hahah bukan yang macam orang gila kat tv tu ye :P you can say that I'm very cheerful full of smile and hyper. yes I am hyper. baik punya lah tapi~ hehhe :) but I'm not in the mood, I will just cut all the connection with the world and just silence. . . .
hahhaXD im not much a story-teller but I am a jokester! yup yup. ceh perasaan~

things I prefer *or love ;)*
~DARK CHOCOLATE
~red things~erytrocytes ;)
~driving
~my OWN room!
~movie on weekend ;)
~family and FRIENDS
~oversea~aaaah
~DSLR


things i hate :(

~weddings

~so many people at the same place at the same time

~person who doesn't know when to shut up

~sambal. BOOOOO!

~my trembling hands -__-

~many more :P


hmmm sudah-sudah la tu. penat lah~ huhuh ;) need to get ready for wafa party? hehhe ;)

till then,

the truth

salam,

just want to say. even though weren't really ready to be an adult but it come to us without we even notice it. huh. and its not my birthday-lah. just urgh~ need to think about our future. huh.

Ophthalmologists are medical doctors (M.D.) or Doctors of Osteopathy(D.O.). who have completed a college degree, medical school,including residency and internship training and an additional two to four years of postgraduate training in ophthalmology. In many countries, ophthalmologists also undergo additional specialized training in one of the many subspecialities. Ophthalmology was the first branch of medicine to offer board certification, now a standard practice among all specialties.

sounds really good dont you think? MD? me? hahaha kind of funny but hey nothing impossible right? hmmm. but my sis said that it doesnt really necessary to take MD. hmmm. I think I need to ask my sis and bro about this first. pronto ! because when I asked my friends, they all know what they want to be in the future. jeles-lah ni! :P

till I decide my future,
goodnight ! :)

I don't understand-lah!

isy seriously all wrong~ but i dont know what it is~ hahahaXD

look im sorry ok? im just joking at that time. no need to take it seriuosly. sorry is the word. cheer up :P

and im so glad i had my friends. they make me so happy! hehe. hahah random-ness -_- yes I love my FRIENDS! thank you :P

SITI AMIRAH KZ! I ♥ YOU!

hehe saje je sebab dah lame x borak ngan dia. padahal baru tadi. hoho.
ok abaikan.

-ikOi-
*my name spell with a BIG "O" ok? :P

P

yes I love 'P'. don't you? its the most beautiful thing ever. i love P, yeah love P


P P P P P P P


loving it~ :)

isy isy isy !

salam buddies! :)

i guess i want to share with you guys something, thats why im here? hahaha what ever lah. even though homework are piling up, insyaAllah, i'll always have time to do my english assignment here~ hehehe.


here come the story (-__-)
my mother took me and my brother from sriaakl and back at sentul. we always heard the asar's call in the car so we just perform our prayer at home. but one day, we were so sick of ayam goreng so we decided to eat or buy pizza at sentul. just around the corner from our house. i'll make it short because im still sleepy~ hehehe. so it happen, we ordered the pizza first then and we want to go perform asar prayer there.
and again, so it happen, they haven't got any surau there at the building! hahaha XD i wanted to ask "then where do guys pray?" but my mother cut me to it. with authority in her voice. and and and guess what is her answer! yes HER and BERTUDUNG!

"terpaksa la qada'"

what the?! hahahaXD seriously, i thought im going to die from laughing my head out! tahan je la tapi kan, buat muka straight. again i wanted to say "mane la boleh suka2 nak qada'2 solat". but again, hahhha my mother sounded like a real mother and said that. pekerja tu diam je la.

isy isy isy what happen to malay people this generation! or should i said muslim! im so embarrass with what they have not learn. solat tiang agama! even if u dislike it, you have to do it! let us see, a simple example, Allah gave us FREE OXYGEN. can you ever repay Him? and you also couldnt even follow His instruction. betapa sombongnya kita dengan Tuhan yang beri kita HIDUP? its not like we're going to be dead if we're solat. tolong laaaah. dont you have even a bit love for Him? astaghfirullahalazim~

may we learn from others and others learn from us.
till then, salam :)

memory~

now now, before you guys read the post, see the time and date first.

yeah, I suppose to be AT the school right now but it turns out that our bas "puteri melewar" doesnt show up! haha but i'm kind of glad it doesnt came. doesnt feel like going to school after what happen -__-

so, our "geng bas sekolah", ikOi, amirah ishak, khairi, amirah AR and wardah decided to give the chances to go to school for the junior :P there are peoples who offered us rides but we said no thanks. hehhee ;) OMG. form 5 KOT! XD but we are so so so not lazy but just think at that time, going home is much more easier than going to school. whats with the riding the lrt and come very late to school and got discipline problem.

then we decided that we're going to amirah ishak's home sweet home. and on the way to her house, we feel that each car pass by us like staring at us and say, "apelah budak2 sekolah ni" . but we try to ignore it since we CANT go to school. "lame excuse"

HEY, we are totally not skipping school ok? well atleast not on purpose :P so here we are, doing chemistry peka and will study insyaAllah~ hehehee

teacher Alia, dont tell us. Hasni about us ok? :) its an ACCIDENT :P

till then!
salam :)

just for you :)

salam everyone :)

this blog has been updated or refresh you could say, thanks to teacher Alia. she said she want all of us to have a journal. so here it is. for you teacher! hehe :)

from now on, im going to try my very best to use proper english so that I wont get scold in the class XD

owh lastly, WE'RE IN FORM 5 RIGHT NOW! it's really hard to believe that we all had studied our way trough the 4 years~ huhuh. so know its the spm spirit or what ever you call it. maybe there are people out there said that spm wasnt that important in our life. well you know what? it IS important if you want to get scholarship and study abroad. so get a grip and just study.

im starting to blabbing here. till then